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i have a new crush..

2008-08-15T04:49:09Z

well maybe not new but a reaffirmation of a lifelong crush. I'm watching a movie called Must Love Dogs and I just remembered how much I adore John Cusack and why he's my favorite actor.

The recipe for TLA is as follows:
2 parts quick wit
1 part self-deprecating humor
1 part soulful brown eyes

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I need a new crush.

2008-05-03T00:08:48Z

I really, really do.
And you can't just go out looking for one, they have to find you. I know, I've been looking everywhere.

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what is a crush?

2008-01-13T09:12:07Z

I filled out a survey on MySpace where the first question was "What would you do if your crush showed up right now?"
my stepsister answered and referred to her boyfriend in Iraq. I answered based on my 2006 Burning Man crush. (Aries if you are reading this you are 2005- mmmm 2005....) My understanding is that to be a crush, it must be unrequited, or it moves int o something else- puppy love or what have you.

That would mean then, that people in relationships are MORE prone to crushes, not less- because if you follow that silly patriarchal conspiracy known as monogamy- as I attempted to do for too long- crushes stay unrequited.

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Who has crushes on Tribe people?

2007-11-17T23:43:03Z

And for crying out loud, do NOT put their names in here or link to their profiles. LOL!

So, do you have crushes on other people on Tribe?

What is it that catches your eye? Or heart? Or spirit? Or makes your crotch pulse? ;-)

And do you think your crush(es) know you have a crush on them?

For me, you betcha. All sorts of things get my attention. Sometimes it's the avatar. It can be a good looking guy, but doesn't have to be. Like some people make faces at the camera, and those are delightful. I want to know who the guy IS behind the face, he's got to have a sense of humour. It might be a picture or drawing of something that grabs my attention.

The other thing is how the person IS online. How they act. How they treat other people. Those words are a greater indication of who they are (or who they are pretending to be???). I read a good post from someone and might notice the name or avatar again, it kind of sticks.

And, no, I don't think the people I currently have crushes on have any clue. Maybe they do though. A former friend had asked me why I was flirting with someone online, and I didn't think I was flirting at all. Eh. I get interested in people and like to know more more MORE! Crush or not. People are interesting.

So, 'fess up. You got crushes on other Tribesters?

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who doesn't have crushes on Tribe people

2007-11-10T07:06:04Z

Really, this is just to start a new thread. I have _major_ crushes on Tribe people! Really, it's embarrassing -- I mean if they only knew....
Don't tell them okay?

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PSTC (post traumatic stress crush)

2007-08-10T22:31:22Z

I know they exist and I understand why, and someone has one on me. I need to tell him it's just not going to work. How on earth do I do that?

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Question

2007-06-04T05:34:30Z

Does having a serious crush on Regina Spektor make me a dirty old man? She's just so darned pretty and talented and creative and smart. I feel like writing her name down with little hearts around it. But then I just feel a little silly.

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2007-05-18T03:34:30Z

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Crushes as something to focus on...?

2007-05-07T01:35:18Z

Sometimes, particularly after ridding myself of a crush upon realising they're undesirable, I'll 'seek out' a new crush...like deliberately look for someone to focus my attentions on...when I find a suitable candidate, it starts as increased interest, then escalates into a full blown crush :(
Does anyone else obtain crushes in this way?

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2007-04-23T06:22:13Z

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Accents!!!!

2007-03-28T13:35:03Z

Who doesn't have a thing for accents?

with me its the weirder the better. I knew a boy in college who was half French and half Japanese who split his childhood between the two places, and I just loved to hear him talk, and another who was born in Louisiana and moved to Hong Kong, both the guys were totally crushable anyway- but weird accents just made them that more interesting.

Then there was the previously mentioned on this tribe Detroit native- and I'm sure that he sounded like a homeboy to me didn't hurt his curshablity. It also meant my husband finally won the "There is no such thing as a Michigan accent" argument.

Right now I'm in one of those really fun harmless flirting between two married people who have been given permission by their spouses to flirt situations- and the guy has a southern California accent, and its just adorable!

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Arnelli Pizza Boys!!!!!

2007-03-25T06:46:36Z

Every time I go into Arnelli pizza on hip ass Valencia street (San Francisco) there is some hottie serving up hot slices. And lately, every time there is a new one, he gets hotter than the last one. The last one, I swear, I was about to follow home. Or wherever he was going. After getting my slice for lunch, I saw him again a few hours later getting off work, and he waws talking to his friends about how hwe was headed somewhere to see live music and eat cheeseburgers- if I weren't carrying twenty bucks worth of fancy paper in a big roll I would have stalked him.

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A love struck teenager needs help.

2007-03-01T20:46:26Z

Hes all I ever dreamed of, and more. Tall, dark, and handsome.
I've seen him online on a random site(myspace) and fell in love.
But I lived in a different state and figured I would never meet him.

Until the day my parents decided to move me to the middle of nowhere. Ok so now I live by him, but that still doesnt mean i'll meet him, hes a year older, and our classes wont be the same. Atleast thats what I thought.

Sometimes I dont give myself the credit I deserve. I am smart. Infact, for a girl my age, i'm beyond the limit. So what happens? 4 out of my 7 classes are with him. The first day I saw him my heart sank below the floor. We didnt talk for a couple of months, but eventually we started to talk, and now he thinks we're good friends. He has me on his top 8, with a bunch of other idiotic girls. We flirt constantly, but he gives me mixed signals. If I pay attention to him, he doesnt pay any to me. And if I don't pay attention.. he goes nuts. He is the only person I am confortable around. He has asked me for my # a billion times when we first started to talk, but I said no. I didnt want to be another girl on his list. I was in denial. Now I realize I would do anything just to see him for 5 minutes. I find myself waking up and going to school just to see him.

I asked him to come to a party with me and he said he'd love to, but he couldnt make it because he had a tournament. He just got back with his ex, and she is jealous of me. She sees me and him talk, and she tries to find out info about me all the time.

He still flirts with me every day.
I feel a strange bond with him I dont feel with anybody else.
Whenever we see eachother we cant help but smile.
We finish eachothers sentences as if we plan on it.
I want him for myself, and I don't know what to do.

- A love struck teenager.

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how does one ...

2007-01-23T13:55:20Z

what's the best way to meet people on here to have crushes on? what works for you?

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Its too late to be holding on to this burning man crush

2007-01-19T21:11:11Z

I'm over it..
I'm over it..
uh, no I'm not...

I was wondering why I couldnt seem to get over this burning man crush I have and my friend was like "oh, like last year, what that was that guy's name? thor? Some god or something.."
"no that's this year, last year it was an Aries.."
Thats when it hit me that mabe I just LIKE to have a burning man crush that lasts all year- till I can find some other playa hottie to crush on, mabe in a weird way I NEED a burning man crush that lasts all year..something so unatinable it can remain in fantasy world in my brain ready to make me drap into some fatazy world at a moments notice... Mabe I don't need to get over it, mabe it's better just to have it and not question why.

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You often want what you can't have

2007-01-05T03:34:08Z

A friend of mine recently said to me that the main reason why I have such a huge crush on the perticular woman I have a crush on is because I can't have her. If she changed her mind and suddenly became attracted to me, the friend said, I'd end up losing my attraction to her. Now that's what I call an assumption I'd love to test!

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exercise instructor = instant crush

2006-12-21T18:56:55Z

aaaah, nothing like a handsome face and physical motion to get the endophins soaring!

I have such a crush on my Kung Fu instructors, starting with:
Ryan
George
Jay
John

Not to mention the other fellow students I work out with.

How's everyone else's exercise class crushes going? :)

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Why I don't have a girlfriend

2006-11-28T18:42:44Z

It seems to me that ALL the women I'm attracted to are either unavailable or not interested in me. If that's true, then maybe I should start swearing off women again. It looks like they've sworn me off long ago.

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You can't make people fall in love with you. (Well that's ANCIENT news!)

2006-11-21T23:31:02Z

I think the main reason why love stinks is because you can't make people fall in love with you. If not that, then it's impossibly difficult to persuade someone to fall in love with you. Or at least in my experience, I have a better chance of being elected president of the Twelve Colonies of Kobol than I have of persuading someone to fall in love with me. Since that's the case, I have to go through the heart-braking, time-consumming mess of finding someone who will fall in love with me on their own. With there being a population of 6 billion -- half women -- then the chances of finding some one who will fall in love with me on their own should be pretty good. But my real life expereince tells me that I have a much better chance of winning the lotto even though I don't play the lotto!

So there ya go. Love continues to stink, life continues to suck, and I'll probably be alone forever. And yes I am aware that many of you may disagree with that conclusion. But even so, that's just how my current way of thinking works. It's a world without consensus, you know!

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Will I ever learn?

2006-11-18T23:03:07Z

I've allowed myself to develop a full-blown online crush once again. The ones that could be potentially all-consuming. It's only been a week but I could already see where it's going. So I'm putting a stop to it, because well, really, I don't need all that angst in my life right now.

Will I ever learn?

Probably not.

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When you crush on me I get hot

2006-11-17T07:34:31Z

It turns me on knowing that someone has a crush on me. Knowing they are thinking of me, daydreaming about me, jacking off to my picture. Yeah, that makes me hot.
Its a compliment.

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I am so completely new, I'm prenewbie.

2006-10-17T22:15:51Z

I'm a happily married woman who has regularly gotten crushes on other men. I guess I'm normal! Right? Right??

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crushes keep me ALIVE

2006-10-12T22:41:08Z

when I saw this tribe, I was suprised that I hadn't started it.

I'm a traveler, though I do have a very strong home community where I grew up. I'm so fortunate to love my home. But at this point in my life I am able to wander and follow the path of divine synchronicity, so I am fully embracing that path and allowing myself to be at home wherever I am.

I LOVE meeting people, hearing their stories. It is so interesting to me to observe the way that the experiences of people's life form who they are.

For me crushes are when I am facinated by a person. When they amaze me, intrigue me, perplex me, inspire me.

tribe is so excellent for crushaholics, because the nature of the format is for people to express who they are for a potential person who has no idea who they are already. That's why I put so much time and energy into my profile here. I think that tribe is better than myspace for this because the format of the profile is more intimate and controllable. I find myself wondering thru mazes of my friends, and their friends, and their friends, just admiring all the beautiful and intriguing people. I challenge myself to speak up when my intuition tells me to, even though it's scary sometimes.

this practice has brought so many amazing people into my life. I do like to keep the majority of the friends I have here to people that I have met in real life, but every so often, some person appears in my experience here, who offers me some kind of stimulation. That's usually what I require to be friends with someone here that I've never met. There has to be a connection that is stimulating in some way.

but back to crushes, I wonder... in order to have a crush, do you have to be physically attracted to that person?

this is a question that I ponder often. it seems that society programs us to automatically shut ourselves off to people that we find unactractive or people who we do not find ourselves attracted to.

but there is also a big difference in the two things I just said. I find that I can have crushes on people who might be labled "unactractive" by society, but I can not (or rather, do not) have crushes on people that *I* am not attracted to.

and I think that this goes beyond physical appearance. For me, with my Venus in Libra, I'm very turned on by intellectual stimulation, a person could be drop dead georgous, but if they don't activate my mind (and my heart of course, moon in pisces) than there's absolutely no attraction there.

So, I guess what I'm asking is: What is crushing to you? Is it body or mind? or all of it? Do you decide to have crushes or does it just happen?

regardless of all of that, my crushes, of which there are many, keep me feeling ALIVE. that feeling I get when I stumble across a being who activates that glimmer in my heart completely warms me, even on the coldest of nights...

so I give thanks for this community who can understand that, and not just lable me as a player... even though I LOVE TO PLAY!!!

what do YOU think?

p.s. I found this tribe thru my most recent tribe crush! you know who you are! *heehee*

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Play List

2006-09-23T02:13:59Z

What are yer favorite crush songs? fess up!
Mine:
"Why can't I be You?" The Cure
"How Soon is Now" The Smiths (that one I'm embarased about, as I am about any Smiths or Morressy song)
"Vacation" by the Go Go's (so much so that if I dont hcave a crush on someone and I hear it in a club, I will look around for someone to develop a crush on.. once switching my normal gender preference! LOL!)
"Teenage Dirtbag" by Whetus. I love that song.

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I feel like Kip...

2006-09-20T21:18:49Z

Kip on Napolean Dynamite of the many sexay cyber girlfriends... Internet dating is not a replacement for real life and dating, in my humble yet honest opinion. Besides the obvious "How do you know they are for real" questions, I point out another point...Here goes: So say you develop a huge fat crush on a cyber dude/chick. Whatevr. But the reason you even LOOKED on the internet for a date is because all the guys you know are losers, and not into actually doing stuff and living. Well, as great as the person on the C2C sounds, and however much they talk about all their GREAT hobbies and social life, take notice of this for me: How can a guy or girl have a great dating and social life if in fact they are on the net all the time, making themselves look good? I think its more important to have a great honest personality than a great, hyped up snazzy profile. Yeah it may get alot of hits, but in the end, what really counts??

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crushes or more?

2006-09-16T19:34:34Z

i am a 30 some thing woman. i am in love with a 22 year old man. every thing is fine until i hear that he had two more relasionships before, both of them with older women. i am confused. why does he only dates older women?with one of his girlfriend he also lived together for 1 year. i am wirried... do you think he has a mental problem were he chooses older women only?he says that age is not a problem for him. he has many young girlfriends but he only dates older women. i dont know...so confused... please e mail me with the answer//

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Have crushes ruined my hopes for love?

2006-09-16T19:24:41Z

I've often thought about this. My crushes are deep and lasting and I wouldn't erase them from my mind and heart if I could. Yet 'real' relationships have never satisfied me. Oh, they've had their moments. But there's something about a crush that means more to me than 'reality' seems to.
What's up with that?
I take it I'm not alone in feeling this way. It's a relief to know that!
M

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Am I wrong?

2006-09-16T19:16:41Z

I was thinking this forum was more about having a crush on someone than being a forum for polyamory. I was reading the advertisement for the Jealous Management Conference. The posting of which seems completely non sequitur compared to the posts surrounding it. It's disturbing to me that a simple, innocent crush can invoke the problems with "Overcoming Jealousy, Possessiveness, Hatred, Anger and Envy."

I thought a crush was something you had but didn't act on. It seems to me that if you act on it, it stops being a crush and becomes something different altogether.. That's just my humble opinion.

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2006-09-14T03:15:02Z

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Lets start a crush on each other... ;)

2006-08-24T21:20:04Z

Lets have our hearts pitter patter so loud when we get notes from each other...lets crush so hard that it feels like junior high all over again. Send me an email if you are also in desire of a crush.

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please tell me, why are there gays?

2006-05-08T03:22:40Z

it looks like if all the boys are gays but they don`t know yet, if they experience (" ") they would like it....is just that i seem like every boy i meet is weird, i am weird too i mean i have had my experience with other girls and i enjoied it, but my best friend who told me since the begining of our friendship that he is gay, is in fact kind of inlove of his partner, and i thought i was ok with it but i am just not! i wish he wasn`t gay and he would like me sexually because let me tell you he loves me but not in a sexual way and is just muther fucking frustraiting!!! and i just imagine him getting laid with his partner, and the idea makes me sick, i am homofobic sometimes with him and hurt his feelings, but he is not a "loca" he is not showing his feminine side no time, he is like "normal" boy, and i love him and desire him very much, i just don`t know or don`t understand him, i just wish i could change him to like girls.... uggg i`m sorry i am not homofobic, i use to suport gays, but is the first time (i think) that i fall in love (i think that is my deal) of a gay guy who never shows that he is gay, only when he tells me how he desires to be and have sex with his partner, maybe i need to be away a little bit from him, because we spend a lot of time together maybe two or tree days consecutives and then he sees his boy for other two days and he disapears from my life, and i miss him all day....i need to meditate in leting this feelings go away... i wish i could understand him... :S

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How fragile they can be

2006-04-25T02:39:16Z

I had this crush on this adorable, sweet guy for a while. I'm married, so it couldnt really go anywhere, but it was a nice little crush on a pleasnt person. Now, only for the sake of the storey, it didnt matter to me that the person I was cruahing on had lost a leg in a motercycle accident before i ever met him, yet somehow, the thing that killed the crush was when I found out he no longer had his own teeth! No leg-no problem no teeth-problem! I feel shallow, but there you go. teeth and hair are my things that turn me on. Aparently I have a thing for guys in chairs too, this my third crush on a guy in a chair. Its just when they are cute anyway and they have those big strong arms, and my first crush ever was on my babysitters older brother who was in one and looked like Shaun Cassidy (it was the 70's), and I was like little at the time so he was right on eye level and he had these big blue eyes and this flowing blonde hair, and he would come over and swim in our pool and...you get the idea.

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telling me "no"

2006-04-21T20:21:58Z

Okay, so I had a teeny little crush on someone, I got just a hint or two (maybe even joking) of mutual feelings. However, due to unexplainable circumstances, any further relatioonship would be just plain taboo. Man, nothing gets me worked up like telling me just plain "no" for some abstract reason, when I think there might be a spark there. Now, I'm crushing big-time.

Why? Why does it work like that? and what can be done?

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casual sex with "the" crush!

2006-04-12T03:51:55Z

i met this guy that is from sweden (sorry if you read this and feel weird, i doub it but still)...here in my city (north part of mexico, you`ll notice my bad spelling too); a month ago, i just saw him on a language computer lab (i study german, french and english), i thought he spoke something else because i saw him with a girl and heard some strange sounds, and i just wanted to talk to him, but we never coincidered, so one day i saw him passing by and i was sitting with my friends i wave at him and said "bye amigo" and he waved back..hehe funny..and one day at the school`s cafeteria, i saw him and another foreign student siting waiting for their order, so i walked by and asked if i could sit there, and they said yes, so we conversed for like 2 hours and instanly i felt a click with the guy and started to be very open with him(as sometimes i do with strangers), i shared my fries with him and then said good bye, i don`t remember if i gave him my number that day but i probably didn`t because i already had made one move, but that has nothing to be with because when ever i feel like i can give my number i do it :S ups i may be easy to the eye, but i am emphatic and sensitive too, so i saw him again and again in the language school (he studies spanish) and at first he apeared to be interested in talking (he came and sit in the computer next to mine, came and sat infront of me at a study table, things like that) and just stare at me also talk about his language, i learned a few words, then i gave him my email and he wrote to me, that i am nice and stuff, then i invited him one day to a museum and that day we just felt good (in company) with each other and i even forgot i had classes so i just kept spending the day with him, so i invited him to eat here at my home, and we had soup and tostadas and i showed him some of my cds, then we took of for a coffe, and then said good bye, but he wrote me an email that night thay he had spend a really nice time with me, and so did I, well to not make it even larger, he and i kept on sharing moments and music and i inveted him to go out with my friends, he kept writing to me with words like "you are a wonderful person" "you are very kind" and stuff and called me to say hi, but! here is the thing, he and i knew this since he answer me the question why are you here, answering with the too most crush the crushing girl words "my girlfriend..." and that wasn`t a problem for me because i thought of him as a friend (yes you are probably saying "aja"), and "aja" is correct since what i really started to feel in two weeks was an exotic pasional almost poetic feeling towards him, and i told him that, one day after a trip to an indian small comunity on an email i sent to him and i didnt herd from him in 3 days also, anyway..is too late now, i had sex with him this weekend (april 9) so i guess i was very confused, (i wrote the first part of this post before this weekend, so there is no problem, namaste, sabora

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12 Step Program???

2006-02-11T05:31:22Z

Hi,

*she stands up and looks around nervously*

My name is Shannon.... and I'm a crushaholic.... am I in the right room? Is this the 12 step program for crushaholics??? LOL

Sorry, I just couldn't help myself! But, until I happened across this tribe, I never realized that "I'm one too". :-)

It's really wonderful to find out that I'm not the only person in the ENTIRE UNIVERSE to feel that way! So, I just wanted to introduce myself and say "Hey!".

xoxo
Shannon

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2006-02-05T00:42:36Z

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...Cyber dateing...

2006-01-28T04:37:09Z

....Well we could try some if we wanted too ..have any of you guy's done that before.. .(what was it like ?) .It seem's like it could be some harmless fun ..Valentine's day is comeing up and It is such a strange holladay ..Everyone is all in this love feeling and it is strange ..Like the sex holladay or something compared to .. ..Lot's of people will make lot's of money ..I am sure that that has something to do with it ..Mabey someone will reviel there secret crush ..It is the thought that count's ..I have had some great vaventine's day's befor ..love is a grand Idea to celebrate ..
...Chipper Parisa...

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I am "in" Crush

2006-01-23T04:21:04Z

uggh!! This is different then most of my other crushes. I think this one is serious. It just gets deeper and deeper and I don't think it's going to go away!! He says he has a crush on me too, but what if he is just being nice. There are however differences in lifestyle that has been keeping us apart.

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Cursh of a Soldier (I dream)

2006-01-21T17:29:16Z

I can feel it now:
that last embrace was so sweet
and when i close my eyes far away
here on this god forsaken battlefield,
amidst the blood and the rotting dead,
I can picture your sweet body
from that last night when we made love.

I need that image now
because I must have so much to lose
that I will win this struggle with god
and fellow man
and come home to you,
or anyone else who will have me.

I need that taste of your salt
and your warmth
as you envelop me
in love and craving
just like the ancient ones who bore us,
and I pray that the memory
will erase all that I now see and know

I need that now
because I must have something
or someone to come home to,
even if it is just a dream.

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like this

2005-12-28T23:04:05Z

i prefer
long kisses with tastebuds
arching into mine
like this

i prefer guys
with a few leftovers
some cellulite covering stone-muscle
with tangible, pillowlike shouldernooks
like this

i prefer warm-wet summers
cool-dry winters
avocadoes the size of my head
my pb and j sandwiches
folded
not cut

and being bearhugged,like this
so that when i get up to leave
you're the orange and im peeling
like this

off you as though ive always been
pasted, giggling buoyant
like this

at home
like this.

could you
move your finger
a little higher.
(to my girlfriend button)
there. right there.
like...that.

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Whre Is this supposed to take me?

2005-12-09T18:35:14Z

I cant stop thingking about a person I met a few months ago, and have only seen twice since then, I really HONESTLY have no intention of persuing the person, so I cant figure out why the hell I cant stop thinking about them. It's getting annoying, its like turning into a weird obsession or something. The last time I felt this way about another person, I did persue it and for while it turned into this really great friendship, and it was awesome, we eventualy drifted apart for the most part (we do still hang out once in a while) but the thing is, that person either directly or indirectly led me to pretty much my entire social circle now, even though he's not really part of that circle. He also led me somewhat indirectly to a shift in my artistic style that was hugely productive and original, but he didnt really do these things,I did, but, still, I know my weird obsession played a part in it. Whats more, the crush went away more and more as I figured out all the things that meeting this person eventualy led to and it resolved itself. Conversely, I turned him on to a bunch of stuff that ended up being productive for him.

The way I see it, crushes have more to do with who you are and what you need to find out about yourself than the actual person, which has got to be the reason I was so productive after the last one like this. So what is this one supposed to mean? This person does have a lot in common with me. And pretty much everything I have in common with this guy I have been repressing because my husband doesn't like those aspects of my personality, not surprisingly, he doesnt like this guy, not out of jealously, but for that exact reason. The REALLy bizzare part is, that I don't even really want a relationship with this person (i mean other than pretty much the friendship we already have, which isn't even THAT close, he's pretty interesting and fun, and Its not like I have some delusion that he's like my soulmate or whatever, that's not even anywhere near how I see the guy) its more like I just want to figure out why the hell I cant stop thinking about him, because I know that it's really some aspect of myself that I'm REALLY looking for. So how do I find it?

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Guess What!

2005-12-02T23:51:41Z

I have a crush on all of you. I will now watch you longingly from afar!

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Crush advice needed

2005-12-02T21:18:48Z

Help! I need some advice on dealing with a crush. I'm happily married in a very warm and understanding open relationship, although my wife is the more open of the two of us. We just moved to Hawai'i together, she about a month before me. One major reason for this move is to get me away from the emotionally sequestered life I've built for myself in my hometown, so I'm now going through a pretty wrenching period of emotional growth.

My wife met this wonderful girl and told me – in advance – that I would probably fall for her. She told me with almost a sort of evil glee, like she was looking forward to seeing me go through some emotional excitement. I meet the girl and after a couple weeks I have a confirmed crush, nervous and obsessed, infatuated and confused, with my mind going in circles and behaving like a teenager falling in puppy love for the first time. It's really embarassing, this hasn't happened to me in almost ten years!

This girl that I am crushing on is very sweet and nice, very afffectionate, but not terribly forthcoming about her thoughts and feelings. I am a bad reader of body language and am totally flirtarded, and on top of it I am told she is hard to read. She has a friends-with-benefits relationship with a close polyamorous friend of my wife and I, but at one point he said she became too domestic and girlfriendish for him so he backed off some. She has said to me that she isn't interested in “relationships” right now, so I'm confused about what all that means. A few times she's looked me in the eyes and given me some strange signals, and I once got a definite “kiss me” but I was too shy to do anything. That's exactly when I started crushing big time, in fact.

So in my brutally honest fashion I came out and said that I had a crush on her. She said that she wasn't interested in “relationships”, and wanted to avoid personal drama. I wholeheartedly concur with avoiding drama, I don't like the wrenching emotions too much. She's probably concerned about my marriage, and getting involved in what could turn out to be ugly, but she doesn't know that my wife and I have been open for six years and have long since gotten over the jealousy, envy, miscommunication, and other associated BS.

I don't want to have any sort of serious boyfriend-girlfriend relationship with her, and monogamy is obviously right out. I really just want to be close friends and physically intimate with her, not even necessarily sex. But I'm crushing on her, which is probably scaring her into thinking that doing anything with me will escalate into a big “thing”. I'm also all crazy infatuated so I'm being a stupid puppy dog and pestering her way too much, but it's so hard to stop myself from doing it. I think she's drawn away from me a little because she's worried that being affectionate with me would lead me on.

I've decided I need to sit down and talk with her sometime later this week, to tell her that I really want to be more than just friends but I don't want to be excessively romantic or anything. I feel like it's better to be open and communicative rather than trying to work anything out nonverbally, and that's my style anyway. I want her to know that I'm not trying to pressure her into anything, and that she can have fun with anyone she wants at any time and it's okay by me, but I want to be intimate with her.

I think I should ask her if there's any potential at all here, or whether it's all in my head. If it's just me then I'll have to try hard to be just an ordinary friend. If I get a “maybe” then I'll just have to wait and see, but I'm already going crazy!

Any advice you guys can give me would be greatly appreciated. Even if you tell me something I already know...

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crush adict?

2005-12-02T00:43:53Z

hey! i just found this tribe, and it describes me perfectly! i have found that i always need to have a crush on someone, even if i'm in a relationship. i mean, when it's a new relationship, i can still feel crushy for that person, but after about six months or so, i need to find someone new to crush on. sometimes its harmless, sometimes it gets me into trouble. anyone else have the same problem?

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5 crushes at once...

2005-11-24T01:12:14Z

I have crushes on like 5 girls here in tribe (at least) - is that normal??

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ga-ga

2005-11-04T04:35:21Z

ok i'll say it.
Im quickly becoming
ga-ga
over a
curious fellow.
the tip of his left ear
curves in and when i
tickle it
he twinges.

it's like ive been
pulling an all-nighter
with my eyes fixed eastward
knowing that this is where
the sun
comes up
(right? maybe i need to get
directions)

just as i started to
droop, yawn flicker

morning crow caws,
and a tiny shard of sun-ness
peeks into my hardness
wound heartspace
un-safing, un-aching,
unhating those with chesthairs beards
and balls

as my flutterring
waiting palms and pains
nestle in the cravaces of pulsing
risingthick
wet wanting eyes
and thighs

i could get used to
this
i could get used to this

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i need a new drug

2005-10-20T15:10:29Z

or a new crush. this long distance stuff is for the birds. ;)

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Horoscope for Aquarians and all crushaholics

2005-10-16T01:17:50Z

(from beliefnet.com)
AQUARIUS (Jan 20 - Feb 18): Emotional attachment to objects of beauty can get you into trouble today, whether you are hooked by a piece of art or by another person. Your desires are not specifically physical, but that's how they could manifest. Actually, you are more in love with an idea than with the person or thing. Understanding this can help reduce your frustration if you are less than satisfied with what you receive.

Well, DUH!

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Crush = Surge in Creativity/ Productivity

2005-10-13T01:47:09Z

Does this happen to anyone else?
I can trace almost every major period of intese creativity and productivity directly to a crush. In fact, I can pick up almost any peice of art that I have created and know what crush either directly or indirectly led to the creation of it. It's almost like I have to have a crush to be really productive.
Am I weird?

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burningman

2005-09-27T06:15:34Z

it's just cruel. so many fabulous people. such a short time. and the thought that you won't see them again for a long time.

and yet. coming back home to my regular rut. i think i forgot how much i adore the boy next door until i get there and think...why of course, it's always been you as we make our next vacation plans. the fabulous extremes of the playa washing out with all the dust that i brought home.

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I'm going to see him again....

2005-09-17T01:47:00Z

after months of narrow misses and brief sightings I am going to get to see my crush again, to really see him, to talk to him, to really get to see him. I want to scream it from the roof tops. Oh joy, oh bliss.

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falling for someone

2005-08-09T02:34:59Z

i'm falling for someone..is it possible to fall for someone and not do a damn thing about it...cause it's so unrealistic

aye caramba

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Multiple Crushes

2005-08-04T19:32:23Z

Right now I have crushes on 3 different cute boys **sigh** I adore them and I do not think any of them know, well one knows but I think he is only interested in being a friend, which I am cool with cuz that makes the flirting fun, but still!!!!! **sighing again**

What do you do with 3 crushes?? I mean I just want 1 well maybe more then 1 really good make out sessions with them, not even sex just make out! How I wish that was poossible!!!

Any words of wisdom out there???

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Crushl: REDUX

2005-08-02T18:00:37Z

guess who's back in my coffee shop? my FAVORITE Cute Coffee Girl (CCG) Missy!

And this time it's perfect... cuz it's a perfect crush. Don't want to date her. Don't want to be with her. Just want to look at her! She has got the most incredibly beautiful pale blue eyes I've ever seen in my ENTIRE life.

<<<swoon>>>

Yesterday she made me her choice, per my request: vanilla au lait.

I think the crush: REDUX is awesome.

PS. She leaves for Costa Rica and Nicaragua soon... hmmm wonder how long she'll be gone.

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I've been crushing on someone for nearly a year.

2005-07-31T16:47:26Z

On Aug.10 of last year, "N" hit me up on Myspace and added me. I began crushing on him immediately. As it was, I was merely a cyber/phone sex partner to him, and he has many Many of those. I could live with that, I was fully aware that he was a real mackdaddy, and I really just wanted to be friends with him anyway. I did meet him in real life (he's in a band here in Austin,) and went to several of his shows. Then he added me on Friendster, ( no, he's not here on Tribe, at least not that I know of.) Other than all of that, he'd never showed any interest other than being computer friends, not even really friends in real life He also has a Livejournal and when I tried to add him there last spring he retaliated by cutting me off his Myspace friends list. He would not admit to that fact though when I confronted him online about it. I also spilled my guts to him about my crush, but he has never told me he did not like me or that I should leave him alone. So since then
I have not sent him any messages, emails or gone to any more of his shows. An interesting fact though- he never did cut me off of his Friendster list, and he's still active on it (even though he preferrs Myspace to troll for more women to cyberdate) and he knows I am still there on his list (I'm the last person to leave him a testimonial,) that I am still active there too.
But no matter how exciting my life is, no matter how active I am in real life and so on, I still cannot forget about him and move on. Every man who shows interest in me (there's not really many of those, because men are intimidated by me, ) I just wind up comparing to him.
Yes I know this is all quite childish and stupid, I forgot to mention, "N" is 16 years younger than me.
My name is Janine, I'm a newbie to this tribe. Thanks for your time.

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How to break a crush

2005-07-26T04:55:47Z

I have a major crush on someone and he knows it and I think even likes it. I have hinted at things, joked about things and then have been very vulnerable and honest about things and still nothing. My fear here is that I see my feelings getting stronger than a crush and wanting things more physical and that his feelings are staying as is. Question: how do I get him out of my head????

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boy next door!!

2005-07-25T15:46:31Z

there is a guy next door nd hes super hot and hes my age and i hav been sendin him signals but he just doesnt get it! help me!!!

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I'm all out!!

2005-07-16T17:51:42Z

I ran out of people to crush on!!
I had a boy, but he led me on and rejected me.
Then there was another boy, but it's developed into such a good friendship that the crush is gone.
Then there was a girl, but she's got a boyfriend and she's way too hot for me to just flirt with because she drives me TOO crazy.
Then there was another boy, but he's gay.

And I don't have anyone new to have a crush on! It's awful!!!

WhatamIgonnadoooo?!!?

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wow

2005-07-14T01:25:42Z

so i got this e mail from this boy i know who is totally sweet and adoreable but i have only met him like 4 times. well the e mail said stuff like you are so sweet and if i could ever get a hold of you we should hang out. what should i do ????

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Crushiness in excess

2005-07-06T02:53:53Z

So, I'm having a thing. I sort of have this crush... who I sort of emailed... who sort of emailed me back... who I emailed back... and I've heard nothing back from - yet.

It's been a week, my head is going to explode... suggestions? comments? questions?

Meh - at very least, a little sympathy? I would feel like a nerd saying I had a giant crush anywhere else but I know I'm not the only one who can't help it!

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new to the tribe

2005-06-16T22:04:05Z

Hello, just poking my head in and saying hi

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Crush vs. Love

2005-06-03T14:20:40Z

This is just an exceot from my blog... I thought it would be appropriate to share on here.

Sitting across from Adam, I realized I didn't just have a crush on him. I love him. It physically hurt me as he talked about the "future" and he looked scared and unhappy. When I thought, I just want to see him happy, I want him to feel supported, I want him know what it is like to have someone in his corner cheering for him... someone he didn't dread moving in with... someone who would light him up. As much as I want to be that person for him, I just want him to have that even if it not with me. It was singlely the most unselfish thought I had ever had, that is when I knew it truly is love, not just a crush. I wanted to grab him, shake him, scream to him and everyone in the bar "You are so special and deserve happiness and love and EVERYTHING... everything from those cheesy romance movies and novel... someone to slay dragons for YOU... someone who you want to slay dragons for". Adam is under this false belief that no one else will ever love him, that this girlfriend is his one and only chance to be with someone.

After a night of dinking, nearly 2am, I suddenly learn what love is... it is when I look into someone's eyes and all I want for them is their happiness, even if it does not involve me in the role I want in their life. Funny how life works.

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...Can Dance...

2005-05-18T20:13:35Z

...Lebay In love...

Standing at the door way
Sparkles elluminateing both eye's
In this beautiful life
We are given chaos
We are also given surprise

With the giveing and granting
We full of care give passion
Body is of art work
Soul is so delightful
Naked is our fashion

Put ourselve's into this place
To injoy the love and lore
The moon it rise's
Together we enter
Each new day to explore

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How do i....

2005-05-17T09:05:05Z

Go about telling someone that i have a huge crush on them... his name is Dirt, he is here on tribe, and i have the biggest crush on him in the world, i have wanted him since the second i saw him, i know that he has a lot of friends here on tribe and i can talk to all of them just fine, but when ever i send him a message i feel like im going to get the hic-cups and pee myself, i get sooooooo nervouse, i dont know how to handle it.... any one have any advice?

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A new crush!

2005-05-17T00:31:56Z

Attention! I'm really beginning to <3 the TOU feature on tribe. That is all.

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Timbo's all new crushing on tribesters thread...

2005-05-14T20:54:41Z

Brothers and sisters, I deleted my old thread about crushing on

limbo, Zot!, and Iva and just wanted to add

dani --you are more beautiful than anyone can tell!
Ms. Dynomite --you writing fiend of low self-esteem
ESS --one day we will bake bread together

and hmm, a cast of thousands? I am not spending oodles of time fixating on these folks when they are indeed fixation worhty...and that's what Crushaholics is all about...not wallowing too heavily.

Now I really am going to go to bed and think pleasant thoughts with all these folks watching over me in my mental sky...nighty night...

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Can they tell?

2005-05-14T12:34:32Z

Something I sometimes worry about is if they know...

My crushees, that is. I think I damaged a person's belief in true love when they found out I had a crush on them while I was married to someone else.

I sometimes feel like I'm being sooo obvious. Staring, smiling... Other times I wonder if they dismiss it all like I'm sure I do when someone crushes out on me (although I feel like it's been forever since anyone was crushing on me...), convincing themselves that they must be imagining it...

When you're crushing do you think they know?

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We like each other but she...

2005-05-06T16:54:21Z

I have been spending some time with a woman who I am attracted to on a physical, spiritual, and working on the cognitive connection. It is quite evident that she is interested in me as well but she keeps on bringing up the fact that she just got out of a relationship and is enjoying being single. What are some ways to approach this situation?

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...Fodden For Friend...

2005-05-06T16:13:09Z

...Fodden For Friend...

On this stone I have fallen in love
Be seeing the goddess and the idea of her
A dream and wanting it to be a reality
Actual hand's holding
The knowlage of a being
Idea's that are passionate in a romantic mind
Understanding patence four 20/20 hind sight
Feeling the sacredness
Heart that is kept close, mind that is right next to it
Page's of line's and circle drawing's
Wanting to bask in the sun with you
Story's to go on about
I will sing you your song

Much love ...Chipper parisa...

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HELP Newbie has hopeless BIG CRUSH

2005-05-05T11:28:20Z

Ok here we go. I have the craziest problema of all times. Iam so crushed out on a gurl it is NOT even funny. And I am grown Ok. I am damn near 41.<yes> 41. She is the motha fucking diva bomb of the universe and I worship the motha fuckin ground she walks on. Her name is Taylor and I love her. Geez I even just love her name <giggle> But I don't **really Love her I just love her in a crushed out kinda way. Here is the deal. I haveNEVER had a crush before. AM I psycho or what???? And I feel like school gurl. Thank the GODESSS she is not on tribes but she wants to be. I sent her a tribes invite but then thot better of it. I realized humm maybe that is not such a great idea because them you know she might be all up in my business just in case I joined some tribe like this one <go figure>Well then I just happened upon this tribe today . And I thot gotta love tirbe I am NOT alone in my insanity. Anyway, I dunno she is so cute did I mention that. And like I have been dying a slow death over her for many months now. And well, it is weird because it is not like I really even want her. Coz I don't. I mean if I did want her I could maybe make that happen--well, if I were not so shy. But what I mean is she is avail. But I don't want her. I just like to be crushed out on her. It is like ummmm something to do almost. I just ended a relationship not to long ago and I was even crushed out on her when I was involved with someone. who I actually did love for real...see what I mean.7 I think she is hot and I like to look at her from a distance and think about how hot she is. I am not sure that I would even fuck her if given the opportunity. Ok well, maybe I would fuck her once but that is it <cracking up falling out of chair> She is smart funny pretty sexy and cute. We get along in every way and well I just adore looking a her. She has a daumm I mean Daum killer smile and I just ummmm ooo la l la. I am near afraid that I will give myself away BECAUSE whenever I am around her I cannot help but smile. I mean I smile a lot. I mean I think I smile around most people but I smile around her a lot. And like sometimes she will like call and want to hang out and I am always like if my hair is looking stupid or some thing I am like Noooooooo; whereas I could give two shits if my friends see me looking crazy.. I mean I care but ya know what I mean. I don't think she would really care*** too much if she knew I had a crush on her. I mean she would probably laugh at metho and be like gurl you are crazy but it feels kinda silly and daum painful at times. I mean I feel kinda stupid and kinda young. I don't normally get all crushed out. As a kid I was never the type who got into movie star worship or shit like that. I mean usually what I tend to do is either if I like you I see if I can get with you or if I can't I leave it alone. So enlighten me what the fuck. How come I am a grown ass woman writing my name and then Taylor's name and then my name on little pieces of paper. Daydreaming about her. Listening to slow jambs and thinking about her. In la la land about her. I go to bed at night and I think about her. I wake up and I think about her but yet I don't want her. I just want to think about her. I confided in a friend who knows her I said the motha fuckin sun rises and sets in Taylor. SHe just rolled her eyes and cracked up telling me I had it bad. Do I have it bad tribes folk Please enlighten me. This is getting kinda stupid. Have I come to the right place? Ms Hopelessly in Love Glitter Diva

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old crush, ridiculously revived

2005-05-05T11:10:19Z

so, my ten year high school reunion is coming up, and i always said i'd go if i knew X would be there. when i got a forwarded email about the reunion, he was on the recipient list, but i haven't actually communicated with him OR gotten word that he's going (he still lives in my home town) OR been bold enough to ask "hey is x gonna go?" because my crush on him was legendary and i think it would crack people up more than, you know, set the stage for some sort of fulfillment or continued arc to the crush.

then, last night, i had this dream where there were many high school folks around, and he was sitting there not saying anything to anyone. i decided to go for it and leaned in for a kiss -- a wonderful sort of kiss, closed mouth first kiss, with pressure, you know, that enthusiasm for the kiss that makes you both like lean in to one another? -- but then afterwards, he still wasn't talking, and i had lost my nerve but couldn't express to him anything of what i was feeling.

so clearly my mind is like 'write him write him write him.' i have this work email address that is his, but is that appropriate? would i be taken seriously? and i can't be too serious from the start. he was a sweet hilarious guy with a light touch -- i want to respond to that in kind.

so, dear crushaholics, i appeal to you for ideas. brainstorms. similar stories. successes and failures. anything. ideas about fulfilling and/or stamping out this ancient crush? thanks.

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hello, I'm Ms Dynomite, and i'm a crushaholic

2005-05-03T05:06:35Z

just joined the tribe... thinking "how the hell did I make it this long without knowing about this? me, the queen of crushery?" *L*

perhaps it's coz took a few months hiatus from tribe...kinda sorta stepping back in. but gosh darn it, a gurl needs a place to discuss the rush of the crush. so here a I am. :) polycrushing daily.

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Awww the beginning

2005-05-03T03:27:55Z

There is nothing quite as wonderful as the beginning of a harmless little crush that is reciprocated. Sweet emails, racing pulses, private smiles and all that fun shit. This is the best.

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New crush poem

2005-05-01T15:22:59Z

I want
the flaming gazes
of heart-smiling
coffee-bar boy
gliding smoothe
down the plane of my shin

both of us wowing
at the contagousness
of sudden goosebumps
not knowing where they began
where they end
and openly awaiting
another dual infection

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I know it's not good to want it too much, but

2005-04-18T23:26:19Z

Do I want to share a relationship with somebody? Indeed. When does that wanting become "too much?" And besides, it seems as if I can't help myself. One might say it is my karma to be experiencing this strong desire, so, should I roll with it or should I pause and question this desire more?

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Vanessa

2005-04-18T06:09:54Z

I just crushed majorly yesterday (Saturday) morning.

I met her at coffee, and she was going to go to the same party as I later in the evening. We both spent far more time than usual before we split off for the daily chores. She was into what I had to say, and that's always a turn on.

All day, I was a little bit a mess, distracted by my experience.

At the party, she acted like this morning never happened, except that she shot me two or three knowing looks, and asked if I was going to be at coffee this morning.

I was, she wasn't. I saw a bunch of people from the party, but she never showed up.

I don't know how much is chance, delusion, or tender ministrations, but she definitely has my attention.

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Any of you kids in Washington?

2005-04-17T22:38:18Z

Yeah, the subject heading says it all. I am in Olympia and I was just wanting to meet up with people near me. Bye.

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Long Distant Crush Up Close

2005-04-14T22:46:40Z

About a year ago a friend of mine had a friend visiting from Budapest. He was simply the most breath taking man I had ever met. He literally took my breath away as we talked... he would smile warmly and look deep into my eyes... I could feel my cheeks blush.
I just got an email that there is a dinner tomorrow night with my crush as he's passing thru Philadelphia.
Before I even responded to the email to say I would be at dinner, I called the salon and begged to be squeezed in at the busiest time of day (right after 5pm) and started planning what I would wear... luckily my apartment is right around the corner from the resturant so I can get changed after the hair cut...
It's amazing how one man, I met one time, can throw me into a complete tizzy... and I love every minute.

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BoinG!!!

2005-04-13T00:48:33Z

I'm so sprung over this crush... it's great! My pulse quikens when he is around ... I don't know how long or if we will continue to see each other ... but at this moment I love it.

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intro of another hopeless in love

2005-04-09T02:41:25Z

G'day,

Im new to the tribe and thought i'd introduce myself and truth be told I cant really figure an appropriate way of doing that. So i've decided to tell you one of me stories (the most recent one).

Well, see, I've had a crush on this one particular bird (lets call her Amiee) whom is my best mates sister (a year younger than I). I've had the crush for an average of about six years or so with her -its not exactly a short infactuation.
I've got a lot of loyalty to my mate (my best friend),and his brother who is also a great friend of mine... and his mother who is too a good friend.. and his father... also a mate. So you've might of guessed the situation, I couldnt exactly go in and steal their little sister/daughter.
Or so I figured when i was younger.

She apparently had a crush on me briefly and trust me I noticed when it was, but still i waited.

Maybe unrelated, im a virgin and to be absolutely honest, havent done much, or anything, at all (Im a romantic, or so i like to think and i want it to be someone special... or maybe i subconciously think that im a romantic because in actuality im a hidieous little man. But im pretty sure I just want/ed it with someone special.)

Anyhow, i've seen her go with guys off and on, we stayed friends; yadda yadda yadda until i left the state about a year ago. I didnt talk to her, or her family since. I had heard no news of her or anything concerning her.

Until A trip i took last week, I visted the state in which the family/her lives, and coincidently it was also my best mates (her brother) birthday. Anyway, the children, (the two brothers and sister) live together now and i ended up staying the week with them (to the neglect of my OWN family) and anyway!
On the Monday night, Amiee invited me into her room, closed the door and we talked for hours... and well she was pretty full on. I mean, it was great and yeah... I think you all kind of know what im implying. Then very casually, since we're honest with each other, she asked me to sleep with her.
I panicked, so i very calmly ignored the question and told her a story. I mean it, i bloody told her a full blown fictional short story, from Isaac Asimov, if i recall correctly (the writer of I,Robot).
Dont ask me why, like i said i freaked and did that. She liked the story (i dont think she got the ending) and then she proceeded to beat me senseless with a pillow.
I slept in the lounge.

On the friday night, the one before i left, I went back to her room. She shut the door and again we talked, a lot.
::on a side note it was my friends birthday that night and i feel bad I didnt stay with him as much that night::
Anyway, from somewhere I got the gall and told her everything. The crush, even the way we met with details to even what she was wearing. She told me she has had a crush on me, once.
I asked to kiss her, I told her i've never been kissed before, she said sure.
I was slightly freaked, and asked nervous as hell "what do i do?".
Utterly stupid I know but i was delaying to build up some more courage that had disappeared somewhat quickly.
It was down to moving our heads closer.

Then there was a knock and her ex-boyfriend walked in. and I think i forgot to mention this before, but her ex-boyfriend is ALSO a great friend of mine. For some reason, again i dont know, I told them how great they were together. I told them which parts of their relationship i thought was great ( when in truth it was the parts where I imagined myself in his position).

I took my leave and got completely shitfaced. He spent the night with Her.
I left the next day, very early, very hungover.

I've still the crush, but couldnt save the kissing thing. I met a girl on the way back on the plane...

Amiee is with her Ex again.

Im still saving the other thing!

(I know this story must appear completely immature and pathetic, I just never had the chance to tell someone before, so I figured what the hell)

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Resturants and first dates?

2005-03-30T06:25:45Z

i need some help with this. Ive heard that girls dont have a good time when you take them out to eat because they dont eat and they feel weird eating in front of a person they just met. Is THIS true?

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Light's Are On

2005-03-29T15:58:16Z

...But nobody's home ...
Are ya'll still in bed or what ?? Full moon is going to be hear soon . Does any body notice that there are more crushe's that happen in the spring ..All the other animal's are doin' it ..This summer's travel's are going to be the ut-most excitement possable ...

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Could you be, could you be, could you be love?

2005-03-29T15:45:15Z

I just want to know if any of you have made some connections here (on tribe) that warrant a good story to share. Go ahead, tell your stories, we would love to hear them............................................................I betcha can't.

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He is my perfect crush.

2005-03-28T17:22:40Z

I get crushes easily on guys all the time, but there has been one special guy that I have had an enduring crush on for years, actually from the moment I met him.
He has warm kind eyes, a gentle voice, and an infecious smile.
He is one of the only people who takes my breath away. I feel like I am 12 when he talks to me... I go all gooey and wonky inside. He is one of the few men who I am unable to just "go after" and I just try not to giggle too much around him.
Well this weekend I ran into him again after not seeing him for nearly a year (mind you, even out of sight my crush on him does not diminsh one bit). My heart stopped when he smiled at me. I felt my face flush as he hugged me and asked how I have been and what I have been doing. We chatted awhile... I got 2 hugs good bye.
I walked home thru the city in below freezing temps, but even though it was midnight, it felt like I was standing in the brightest sunlight.
OK... I have reached my sap quota for the next 6 months.

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Obviousness...

2005-03-27T08:13:00Z

So there's this gal I've had my eye for a few months. Jenny. Jenny is rather attractive and very nice. I've seen her at a few networking events and stuff like that. She used to work with a good friend of mine. Whenever we've seen each other she's always been polite, but I've never felt like I was the focus of her attention.

Last week I saw her and we had some nice conversation. Not the focus, again, but still, she spent some time talking to me and was lovely to talk to.

I saw her last night and today. Whenever I do see her, there is a weird sort of awkwardness between us. I know my contribution is my typical "Gawrsh she's purdy" social awkwardness that I so often feel.

So here's the wondering: If Jenny were interested in me, I'd know it, wouldn't I? Being a fairly in-tune, empathetic, and observant individual I'd get the signals, right? Odds are really really slim that Jenny is feeling awkward because she's interested in me and doesn't know how to act around me, wouldn't you say?

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crushed

2005-03-25T19:56:09Z

I feel sick right now because of this break-up, so does anyone have any words that may help me through this? We met on tribe 5 months ago and she went from "I love you so much and want to grow old with you" to "I'm confussed but also there's this other guy I have feelings for" this had nothing to do with anything I did, she just had a change of heart (all of the sudden ...actually, one week)... how do you deal with this? Anyone? I can't sleep or eat.

this comment from a friend is about the only thing that has helped me deal with it just a tad better but it still hurts... "On the offside, at least you won't be with someone that changes their inner core feelings at the drop of a pin. That sounds like a landmine"

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crush revisited?

2005-03-23T16:18:23Z

Damn! I thought i was over it! I had a crush on "Scott" a few months ago, we had a fling and decided that we were incompatible, and i thought i got over him! SInce then (we work together) every once in a while he would act really awkward around me yet remain aloof. He has never claimed to have feelings for me, but sometimes he gives me this "look" and I SWEAR I can feel it in my FEET! Today my heart swayed wheni I saw him and I found myself infatuated again. Why did this happen? I want to be over him! I might be hallucinating that he has feelings for me, but why is it still so damn uncomfortable between us?

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Humility?

2005-03-16T22:24:40Z

I browse these tribes and see so many pictures and comments. One theme that surfaces time and time again is vanity. So, here it is...What is vanity and how does it manifest itself in your life?

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In a wink

2005-03-16T21:46:21Z

I'm crushing hard on a coworker who keeps winking at me. Does she have something in her eye, is it a facial tic, does she wink at everybody the same way, is it Morse code, a harmless nothing, a loaded something? What the fuck is in a wink?

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big crush...big ?

2005-03-14T03:54:01Z

okay, I have a phat crush on a girl that works in the library at school. Should one avoid approaching somebody at work? Also, should one avoid approaching somebody and just wait for the moment to present itself, i.e., should I make the moment happen or is that just creepy time? P.S. She is sitting right behind me now typing away...be still my aching heart, be still.

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I'm too old to have crushes!!

2005-03-13T05:41:02Z

My first was on John Travolta in "Grease," when I was five, and my most recent was a dude who sits next to me part-time at work (although I've since decided he's kind of a dick). I'm 32. Will it ever stop??

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